is collecting long to write this post. I wanted to wait a bit to time zaleczył wounds, literally and figuratively. I wanted to to be more objective.
And so to work.
My birth was a nightmare. The first pain I was awakened at 5:30 am. I felt like I had to get a period. I went pee and it turned out that the toilet paper was a bit of mucous blood. Contractions were irregular every 3 to 6 minutes. I practiced the breathing and just waited to 7 Then Dad got up and decided to call MATT our 'purchased' on this great opportunity as a midwife. Total uzgodniłyśmy that is the beginning and that I would come to the hospital when contractions are strong. From the 13 contractions were regular every 3 minutes and pretty strong, but in addition I gave stękania cope with them. And so, together with daddy Matt the przeczekaliśmy to 15 When begun in earnest pain (10 hours labor) we got in the car and drove to the hospital. After all papierologii and KTG, which seemed to last forever, I found a chair to study for 16th The doctor said that the opening is 4cm (divine thought), but the head balotuje, which is not entered in the channel. They recommended further study for 2 hours. Then, if the bladder has not yet burst, it will be cloned. These two hours were tough (in the scale of 1-10 - 6). I spent it on the ball. MATT massaged me cross, because the pain was terrible. Then the awful stillness and KTG at study end. It turned out that there is no progress. That is 2 hours torture may itself be a d. .. stick.
Then when I punctured bladder contraction. Liquid and liquid water. I started hard core to the max (on a scale - to 8). The midwife took me into the shower. Pompously said. This closes the door Kajutka shower rooms, in which it was so cold that I did not know what I pour the water itself. Are on the abdomen or back, whether or not consecutive, to warm up. Contractions were still 3 minutes - TERRIBLE. I sat in the wading pool on the ball, not having even a place to put feet, trembling with cold and Wilam in pain. Did not help AT ALL! After 30 minutes, almost on all fours, I went to the hall. There have been mega hard. The midwife told me to sit on the chair of childbirth. I felt that I'm starting something rushing. The midwife told me a little longer pushing. It had been a further 2 hours (15 hours labor). Then the study. The old hag, who was on duty, I planted the paws during contraction and found that nothing else happens. I was terrified. Midwife prompts her to give me a painkiller quoted. So Dolargan, which did not work for pain, only otumaniająco. Once injected it into wenflonu I quickly put, because could shoot in the head, and dad got a kidney Maciuś, because I could vomit. And in a moment I was entering, or lost consciousness. Because of the terrible pain was tearing me. And when the spasm passed and I lost consciousness again, and for three minutes the same thing. And so, for 2 consecutive hours. It was the worst two hours of my life. I had a very strong pain parte, and yet I could not squeeze my baby.
For those two hours I was damned as the madness and probably if not for this damn drug, it would have clipped my bars. From what I remember Jesus, called to some 2000 times. I was afraid, because I always felt that go wrong. The pain was so strong that I wanted to die. They are not just empty words. Imagine how much I had to suffer, since knowing that I spend on my tiny world, a beautiful, coveted baby, in which we waited so long, I wanted to finish me off, like a suffering animal kills.
In the meantime, the old nasty gynecologist examined me again, which intensified the pain on a scale - to 10 And when I literally started to howl and kick their feet, hold of them to me and said she was quoted in "help me". I felt I was doing something unusual and my last bit of consciousness, I remembered the words of our birth as a midwife from school, sometimes we did not give them help, or do massage the neck, because it is banned and kicked very niebezpieczne.Wtedy jade and screamed that she left me.
came the doctor, who welcomed me. I remember that I begged him to "took me a child", or else die. All the time lasted parte contractions every 3 minutes. The doctor examined me again. Długo.W silence. In the end concluded that the child goes in the contraction channel, but for the moment to come back and end up cesarka, of which almost two hours of begging. This is what happened, then I remember how the fog. I remember that I was suddenly a lot of people dressed in green. I connected the drip and ordered to sign documents. I could not hold a pen, because I shook my hands, let alone sign it. They ordered the hold pressure. Those of you who have given birth know what are cramps parte and if you can stop them. It was even worse than straining.
The last time a doctor asked me, I tried again. She helped me when a friend of Dr. pediatrician, who was waiting in the hall to examine the baby. She said, "Let your terribly upset. But so bad if you could not make such a big pile and let you support the terribly hard. "I looked into her eyes and tried again last ounce of strength. 3 straining at one spasm. Maciuś doctor and dad pressed my legs. Then the doctor said that:" But unless you give birth. "sought out in a remnant of strength, I felt that if you do not, I die. I was incised at the next contraction my crotch and pushed her head. A moment to the next contraction was even worse (head in the crotch), but when I started, pushed around the baby.
I was in amok. How terribly hurt an animal. I cried terribly. I just repeating two words: "My child, my child." I remember that my legs were shaking. I placed my baby for a moment on his chest and was taken. I did not tell him what I wanted as soon as you come into the world. I did not tell because I was in shock, some amok. I looked only at Daddy Mateo a full time yet clasped hands. He cried.
And me, tearing thus from the womb of a child, they took all the joy of the miracle of birth ...
I described his birth as thoroughly and issued to the general public in protest and warnings. Me, no one realized that childbirth is such a horrible experience. I've had here is grief, and to friends and to his own mother.
I'm still in deep shock, that in the twenty-first century, women still give birth to such enormous suffering, and in such abominable conditions. I had a birth with complications, but they were predictable, and came so late, by a pure zaniedbanie.Nie taken me a fool ultrasound, evaluating the situation "in the middle." This is what I experienced, horror of horrors in the presence of doctors were inhumane. And believe me, that even if the birth is lighter, it's still a woman suffers. Yet there is no painless childbirth. I can not understand why this is happening, since even at the dentist when you can get silly borowaniu anesthesia. Once the head hurts, you can sip an analgesic tablet and a woman giving birth to a child is still screaming from the womb in such an inhuman manner. It is a scandal!
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